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♥THE OWNER

PROFILE

Name: KaiiFen
ME:
-A simple averaged-looking girl.

-Smile for the sake of smile.

-Doesn't care much.

-Heart-less.

-din know how to spell
'peace' in my dictionary.

-A little craze at times.

-quiet at times.

-hated ppl sometimes.

-Bad friend.

-Believes that The world
HAS NO TRUTH.

-Believed that theres
no one with truth.

-Suspecting EVERYBODY.

-Filled up with lies.

-At times, Hated Life, Loved Life.

-wanted a simple life.

-Wouldn't want ppl to really
know how i really feel.

-BAD BAD attitude.

-Frequent mood swings.

-Deeply inspired by someone's life,
that changed my life FOREVER.

Age:15
Bdae:29.11.92
Gender:Female
Zodiac:SaGi
Sch:HSS
Craze:
Kpop
Jpop
Anime
Ft

Wishlist:

1)~~New Phone~~
2)Learn to play:
{hungarian Dance No.5}
{Fur Elise} Fully
3)Simple, Peaceful life.
4)mr.M! XD
5)family peace;healthy
6)Xmas PArty! XD

♥TIME

♥DARLINKS

KaiFen[October]
JiaYi
Liwen
LiWei
MeiZhen
ChooLian
JieQi
YuShyang
YuhSheng
RongTat

♥SHOUT OUT

♥ARCHIVES

October 2007
November 2007

♥SPECIAL THANKS

My Parents

TIAN HOUs PTE LTD:
-WenWen
-YiYi
-Yiyi's Boyfriend.
ALSO, to our manager,
-Meizhen.

-JieQi,Yushyang,LiWei.
{For tutoring this stupid girl.}

Friends:

-YongHwee
{Friends for like, 11 years?!}
-Mr.Kid
-ShiLing
-Sara A.k.a SanHer
-Yunz
-Mel
-Xin
-Yuanting
-ZiQi
-Yenting
-Justin
-HengGnee
-YuChen
-RongTat
-Rongsheng
-ZhengHao

Also, those BOYS in FT.

♥CREDITS

DESIGNER
photobucket
brushes

♥MUSIC

HilaryDuff - Fly

Mandy Moore - Only Hope

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Ee seung gi - Why are you leaving me?

Are you leaving me?
Is this the furthest reach for us, is it?

How could your heart change so quickly?
We both believed in it so.

Is your heart crying too?
Are you crying cause you're sorry to leave me?

How can you cumble so rapidly?
After all it's still love.

Did you not know that
love is a kind of honour?
that you have to guard at all costs.

why did you destroyed it?
why did you finish it all in a moment?

how can i erase you..
how can i forget
when we've been together for so long..

If you were to turn like this,
forget like this,
why did you even say you love me?

Oh, what do you know?
what do you know of love?
what do you know of my aching heart?

To where can i go now?
when all i had was your heart and my love for you..

its all too precious for me,
those countless days and nights.
of times when we laughed and shed tears.

Dont discard it easily,
Please dont throw it away.
hold on to them.

The Nature Within. 8:58 PM

Ee seung gi - White Lie

Go, leave me..

I've become tired of you..

please dont bother crying

and just leave me.

when i told you i loved you,
it was nothing but all lies.
Just leave when i tell you to go.

Im Not the warm and good person you knew.

i m nothing but a worthless and pathetic guy.

you know that i have no right to make you shed tears again.

Dont let yourself cry because of me.

i m truly sorry.
that you had to love someone like me.

I know that it's been hard on you
that i never did anything for you.

This is who i m,
a man who cannot even protect his love,
and can only send you off...

Please just curse at me and tear me down instead,
because i have done nothing,
but give you pain and much suffering.

Next time, let your family meet,
someone you can be proud of,
a worthy guy.

That is all i hope for.

i m truly sorry.
that you had to love someone like me.
I know that it's been hard on you that i never did anything for you.
This is who i m,
a man who cannot even protect his love,
and can only send you off.

And so, thank you.
for loving someone as worthless as me.
cause as i was loving you i finally wanted to live out my life.
Yes, i did love you...

and meet a good man and leave me far behind..
so that you can live happily..

The Nature Within. 8:41 PM

{SMILES!}[31oct07 (II)]

"`you will nvr see me again.
`thats good for both of us thou.
`dont you think so?
`but i really wanna return you the money.
`and i want to give that thing to you.

`but i realise now..
`its all a dream..
`justa dream..
`a nightmare."

---->To: mr.M

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`so i decided to wake up from it and smile off everything from now.
`thats wat i wanna do.
`i am feeling so down.

`ppl keep ignoring me nowadays.
`i kant take it.
`too much.
`feeling so crapped up, fed up and everything!
`GGGGGRRRRR.....

`listening to bu neng shuo de mi mi and shan hu hai.
`both songs just suits us so much.
`i almost cried.
`i m just too weak..
`i am sorry.
`i am justa simple-averaged girl.
`i could never do anything...

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`just now go bishan there.
`haha. we purposely plan to be late haha.
`den we still guai guai go there puncutally!
`hahas. We go junction8 there walk walk.
`hahas. then kenneth treat me with nuggets!
awww~ i was SOOOOOOOO hungry back then.. XD
`he say nevermind, since its jus points. wa.. he got 960 points in mac! O.o

`we all sensed that ytd that man was angry and bek cek yesterday.
`hahaha. then we all keep complaining all the way from sch to bishan there.
`lols!
`but it was fun lah.
`haha. me kenneth weiyi and Den Poh..
`Den Poh and weiyi did the most work these two days! THANKS! XD
`den me and kenneth there slack! ahha. no lah. we weaker.. hahas.
`ALLLLLLLLLLLL worked sooooooo hard! X3
`hahaha. the bottles.. so hard to screw lah.
`then they screw half way saw a earthworm.
`they were very very fascinated about it!
`hahahahs.. they go and catch it in the bottle!
`then Den poh go shake lo! crazy lah he.
`then they keep calling me lao ban niang.. LOLS.
`soo old!

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`hais. so sad now. (>.<)
"`i jus kant feel you anymore. where are you?
`i kant take it anymore.
`i m lost.
`thats my problem when i fall i love.
`i get really selfish.
`i kant bear to see you getting hurt.
`i got to go.
`for the goodness sake of me and you.
`i have got to go.
`lets not meet okay? =)
`miss you."
just hope you can see this message.
-------->To Mr.M

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The Nature Within. 6:45 PM

{BADBADDAY} [31oct07]

`after ytd,
i plan to be M.I.A!!!
`MUAHAHAHAA~

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`almost cried
`feel so damn crap this morning.
`still say wat girl wat love de.
`forget it.

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`my plan is just to ignore!
>:D

`i m really bad yea?
` can go die le.
`haha.
`listen to shan hu hai wanna cry. ='(
`conspiracy even worst. X'O
`i want to forget everything an restart again.
`muahahah.
`i am the meanie.
`i know its not funny thou.
`but everything is over.
`NO. NOTHING HAS STARTED.
` I HAVE HAD ENUFF.
`FED UP WITH EVERYTHING! >=(

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`later going bishan again.
`haha. lesser ppl.
`i am hungry!!! no money eat! ='(

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The Nature Within. 1:16 PM

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

[30 oct 07 (II)]

` crap.
`sick of everything.
`dunno leh.
` very sick and tired le.
`DUNNO AH. ARSHOLE.
`ppl are ignoring me nowadays.
`fed up.
`ARGGGHHH..
`why cant i grow up.
`*roll my eyes*
`something inside me wants to come out.

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`todae went to bishan.
`actualli is not to teach ppl
to make sculpture.
`is help to make sculpture.
`lols. damn tired ah.
`but its okay leh quite fun.
`is for the wat, nov 3 de clean and green dunno wat.
`for the prime minister to come duno do wat.
`lols.
` quite fun lah.
`but not much either.
`jus go there do lo.

`everybody today tired out le.
`so tml not much ppl going.
`but we need more ppl.
`.....

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LOVEIS SICK;LIE AND PAIN.

The Nature Within. 8:08 PM

` 30 oct 07

now at school.
sianing.

Later going for art.
at bishan park.

lols. jus now forced kenneth to buy
chocolate. XD
So later at bishan park and at cab there can eat.
muahahaha.

then now he say he no money eat. lols.

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today is daphne's birthday.
HAPPY BDAE DAPHNE!

haha. just now me, kenneth and wenxin go buy her present.
haha. sooooooo cute lah the winne a pooh.

wa... then i tell wenxin i want the mickey mouse mirror..
those hang on wall de.
den she say wa... must call alot of ppl share to pay for it...
lols. if she really buy for me ah,
i will love her to death ah.
SOOO Ex!
LOLS.

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The Nature Within. 1:13 PM

Monday, October 29, 2007

`Tml and wed going for the wat,
sculpture making? yea.
teach ppl how to make sculpture.

`hmmm. from 2 to 5pm.
`at bishan park.

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`Todae that krazy guy from our class..
pushed me.
haha. sort of use "body slam"
--"

`my bone hit the edge of the of the bench.
`hais. why my day liddat de. *shakehead*

`cant blame him oso.
`now i kant even walk properly.
`kant even sit properly.
`must sit sideways.

all thanks to him ah..
now dont know when will be okay.

but thats okay lah.
its jus a small pain.

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hais. feel like having depression.
--"

The Nature Within. 10:56 PM

`now back home already.

`i dont know what am i doing nowadays..

`playing lame games..
`staring into space..
`sleep.
`wake up i the morning go school.

`i feel so lost.

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You make my time stop.
Your time has stopped, so do mine.

The walking pace is really slow.
Walk and walk and walk..
Only feel like walking...

Feel so heavy..
Like dragging something heavy.

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The Nature Within. 12:43 PM

{Rainy/Midnight}[29oct07]

`really worried and excite for that day.
`>.<

`worry wat to wear la,
`worry must give him anot la,
`worry give him le he like anot la,
`worry that day boring and sian la,
`worry that i dressed up not nice la,
`worry that he that day bad mood la,
`hais, worry that he dun like the movie. >.<

hope everything is okay that day! XD
Yes.....

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The Nature Within. 3:24 AM

{Rainy/Midnight}[29oct07]

`sneaked outta my room
`lols. used com on 3.21am
`lols. so rainy now. heavily, crazily! XD

`life is so sian nowadays.

`later got bridging either sleep or cold to death.
`prepare for o-lvls?
`no mood ah.... --"

The Nature Within. 3:20 AM

Sunday, October 28, 2007

20 Things girls want guys to know:

1. We love you when you cuddle with us.

2. A kiss on the cheek is a definite yes.

3. We want you to put your arms around us in the movies.

4. We dont care if you are the strongest guy in the world.

5. Size doesnt matter, so dont tell us.

6. We dont always look our best, so get over it.

7. We shouldnt have to plan everything.

8. We are always ready to talk, so call us.

9. We are not perfect, so deal with it.

10. We love surprises.

11. The little things you do, meant the most.

12. We are not always girly girls.

13. We can like boy stuffs too.

14. Cursing and fighting doesnt impress us.

15. Dont be mean to us to get our attention.

16. Dont tell us who is hot because we dont care.

17. We can tell when your not listening so listen up.

18. When we say we are cold thats our invitation to come closer.

19. Hugs mean more sometimes.

20. we need your advice sometimes so dont be afraid to give it to us.

The Nature Within. 5:22 PM

{Sunny Noon}[28oct07]

ytd called him at night.
he is really cute.
XD ~
lols. He sounds really sweet ytd night.
Mayb he was in a good mood?
HAHAs~
That stupid mafia.. =P
Then call me to call him around 2plus.
haha then i sleep le.
sorry yea? lols. =)

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Kant get any sleep ytd.

Woke up at 4.27am
Saw his msg and sleep again.
Woke up again at 5.57am
Then used com till 9.04am
THEN GO SLEEP UNTILL 11.30am!
ARGH!!! XD
FINALLY GOT SOME SLEEP!~

Hmm.. later gonna go plaza sing with mother.
Take that stupid cableTV.
then going to cousin's jia po's hse.
hais. Sian.

The Nature Within. 2:12 PM

LOVE:

We think about it, dream about it,
lose sleep worrying about it.

When we dont have it, we search for it.

When we discovered it, we fear losing it.

its our source of pleasure and pain.

But we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next.

Its a short word, easy to spell,
difficult to define and
impossible to live without.

The Nature Within. 11:56 AM

Saturday, October 27, 2007

[27oct07]

`NEW IDANCE FILES ARE OUT! XD
`OMG.
`I MUST HAVE IT! holidays are the most times i get broke easily.
`and...
`JIGOKU SHOUJO IS BACK!
`LOVED THE EMO HER! XD

`practiced my keyboard recently.
`much more than i usually do.

`so hoped i really do improve... somehow.

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idance: {wishlist} XD

M - stomp
M - The'M'Style
Typhoon - only you
Super junior - Don't Don
Super junior - haengbok
Bigbang - Lie
Bigbang - shake
bigbang - dirty cash
bigbang - lalala
kara - break it
kara - world of secret
wonder girls - Tell me
wonder girls - irony
cats - baby cats
ivy - temptation sonata
Super junior T - Reverse
SS501 - 4 chance
SS501 - coward
epik high - fan
bae seul gi - tomboy
TVXQ - balloons
son ho young - yes
son ho young - my heart reaches for the sky
TVXQ - O jun.ban.hab.

The Nature Within. 10:08 PM

{Night/HomeAlone.}
[27oct07]

`Lifes so weird nowadays.
`how to describe it?
`RETRIBUTION! RETRIBUTION!
`thats wat i say to myself everything.
`haha.. why dont i die earlier lah?
`did so much BAD things..
`me and kaiyun owaes say i die in 1000DC.
`She die in -1000DC
`LOLS!
`i dont ever regret what im doing or what i have done.
`thou i know whats the consequences.

`Want to say "mianhae" to SOOOOOOOO many ppl.
`wo qian tai duo ren le. hais.
`repay next life? LOLS.
`Dont really care much nowadays.
`or perhaps this few months.
`starting to think that things around me are meaningless and pointless.

`did chores whole day at home today.
`tried to do as much as i could..
`to stop myself from thinking nonsense.
`but chores kant really stop me from thinking things out.

`hmmm. This Nov and Dec like real busy. BUZZ~
`Filled with FT activities.
`but its good somehow.
`at least i have somethings to devoted to.

`Dont feel like touching PS.
`COM games getting sian-er.
` --" everything is getting meaningless.
`felt a sense of "Nothing interest me anymore"...

`alot of things happened lately.
`.....

`my brain is really blanked.
`Just wanna stare into blank space.
`my body is really tired out.
`din have any good night sleep even since my exams.
`Every midnight will wake up once.
`natural alarm.
`ZZ.

`Burst. Gonna Burst SOON.
`Too much things inside till its gonna burst.
`i dont have to say it.
` "Say it out, you will feel better."
`ppl owaes say that right?
`hah. i dont think so.
`seriously, i dont feel any better when i say it out.
`you will have to worry if THAT person you say to will:
spread?
Worry with you?
Thinks negative ways of you?
`wow.
`might as well dont say will feel better.
`but you know, life is OWAES CONTRADICT.
`if i dont say it out, i will feel really bad inside.
`i kant cry, kant be angry, i just kant do anything to solve it.
` --"

"A mixed feeling is always there.
Overflowed..
My emotions overflowed..
Getting all numbed..
Forgot what love is all about..
Daikishimete? onegai..."

`why is life way too contradict?
`omg. *sigh*
`now too much things till i din know how to feel again.
`i am really sad -- but i din know how to cry{numbed}
`Really angry -- din know how to show it.
`happy? i forgot wat izzit about? Oshiete? O.o

`today watched MUSIC BANK.
`wow, bigbang and wondergirls special stage.
`it really make me happy somehow.
`getting crazy is fun with my sis! XD
`KRAZY!
`CrownJ too.
`just now siao for one hour at home. XD

The Nature Within. 9:35 PM

Thursday, October 25, 2007

ytd go yxb:

《关系》

（一）忍一句，祸根从此无生处。

病从口入，祸从口出。

“一言入耳，千斤难拔。”

（二）饶一著，切莫与人争强弱。

人生如一场戏。
当戏演完了，全部归零。

人的欲望太多。
但，真正需要的并不多。

（三）退一步，便是人生修行路。

退一步，就是在前进。

“针，没有两边是尖的。” -- Nobody is perfect.

诗日：

人生最爱享春光，
流水无情，梦一场，
秋月无情，枝叶落，
圣门已入，莫旁徨。

The Nature Within. 2:54 PM

Animax Asia:

Win a pair of tickets to tokyo!

Just dress yourself as Your favourite japanese horror character!

The best dressed will win a pair of tickets to tokyo!

Go to Zouk on 27 oct 9pm!

For more details:

http://www.animax-asia.com/promotions/gfh2/

The Nature Within. 1:55 PM

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

`24 oct (II)

`later got yan xi ban...
`hais. damn tired..
`wanna sleep...
ZZzzz...
`today no food again.. =(
`i want food... FOOD.

`my mum's gonna cancel animax channel!
`no i dont want to!! =(
`kant watch animes anymore. =(
`but i will have to pay money... ZZzzzzzzzzzz......
`jigoku shoujo2 coming soon! arggghhh.. kant cancel!

`anyway, gonna sleep now..
`if not kant listen at yan xi ban oso...
`(( -_-)) *shakehead*

The Nature Within. 2:39 PM

`Now at school!
`!!
`lols. now having modular day at school...
`just go into com lab and do anything you want for the whole morning!!!
`wa seh...

`shiok ah...
`hahahahas.
`damn fun lah.
`using com with yunz and mel.
`haha. can listen music somemore.
`heng we chose go play computer game ah..
`lol.

The Nature Within. 9:34 AM

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

i guess i m not giving him "it" already.
Or seeing him anymore.. its meaningless/pointless.
but i just bought it!!!! GGGGRRRRRr....
But its okay i think, a memorable...thing? lols.
We may never meet anyway..
so what if we meet?
I m not HIS kinda girl. and...
iTs just back to olden days.
haha. We are just nothing actually.
NOTHING JUST HAPPENED.
the drawings,
the promises,
the songs...
Haha. just like i say, " Dreams are over.."
hahas, Anyway its good to be like that.
i have too much to carry these days.
im Really tired of everything.
Too tired...
Its over now. =)

i guess he feels the same too.
Everythin is a lie, started by me. =)

" Our meet is a beautiful Mistake. "

“ 我们的相遇是一个美丽的错误。”

yea. all my fault.
haha. but i guess he still loves his girlfriend.
so thats why .... ya.
anyway its jus over. =)))))))))))))))))))))))).
heheheh. woke up from my dreams!!

The Nature Within. 7:21 PM

TimeTable For My Nov and Dec Holidays--

October --

24(Wed) *Yan Xi Ban
25(Thu) *Qing Zhu
28(Sunday) *Jia Ting Du Jing Ri
29-31 (Mon - Wed) *Bridging

November --

1 & 2 (Thu & Fri) *Bridging
2(Fri) *Mumi's Birthday celebration.
4(Sun) *QingShao
5-9(Mon-Fri) *Bridging
8(Thu) *ShuShi Da HUi
18(Sun) *LeLingZhouLiaoYuan
21(Wed) *YanXiBan

December --

15(Sat) *A-groupOuting
19(Wed) *YanXiBan
21 & 22 (Fri & Sat ) *Bcamp
23 (Sun) *Bgroup outing A.k.a XmasParty!~ XD

The Nature Within. 6:35 PM

Saturday, October 13, 2007

`This blog is under construction till november.

The Nature Within. 8:48 AM

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