`Lifes so weird nowadays. `how to describe it? `RETRIBUTION! RETRIBUTION! `thats wat i say to myself everything. `haha.. why dont i die earlier lah? `did so much BAD things.. `me and kaiyun owaes say i die in 1000DC. `She die in -1000DC `LOLS! `i dont ever regret what im doing or what i have done. `thou i know whats the consequences.
`Want to say "mianhae" to SOOOOOOOO many ppl. `wo qian tai duo ren le. hais. `repay next life? LOLS. `Dont really care much nowadays. `or perhaps this few months. `starting to think that things around me are meaningless and pointless.
`did chores whole day at home today. `tried to do as much as i could.. `to stop myself from thinking nonsense. `but chores kant really stop me from thinking things out.
`hmmm. This Nov and Dec like real busy. BUZZ~ `Filled with FT activities. `but its good somehow. `at least i have somethings to devoted to.
`Dont feel like touching PS. `COM games getting sian-er. ` --" everything is getting meaningless. `felt a sense of "Nothing interest me anymore"...
`alot of things happened lately. `.....
`my brain is really blanked. `Just wanna stare into blank space. `my body is really tired out. `din have any good night sleep even since my exams. `Every midnight will wake up once. `natural alarm. `ZZ.
`Burst. Gonna Burst SOON. `Too much things inside till its gonna burst. `i dont have to say it. ` "Say it out, you will feel better." `ppl owaes say that right? `hah. i dont think so. `seriously, i dont feel any better when i say it out. `you will have to worry if THAT person you say to will: spread? Worry with you? Thinks negative ways of you? `wow. `might as well dont say will feel better. `but you know, life is OWAES CONTRADICT. `if i dont say it out, i will feel really bad inside. `i kant cry, kant be angry, i just kant do anything to solve it. ` --"
"A mixed feeling is always there. Overflowed.. My emotions overflowed.. Getting all numbed.. Forgot what love is all about.. Daikishimete? onegai..."
`why is life way too contradict? `omg. *sigh* `now too much things till i din know how to feel again. `i am really sad -- but i din know how to cry{numbed} `Really angry -- din know how to show it. `happy? i forgot wat izzit about? Oshiete? O.o
`today watched MUSIC BANK. `wow, bigbang and wondergirls special stage. `it really make me happy somehow. `getting crazy is fun with my sis! XD `KRAZY! `CrownJ too. `just now siao for one hour at home. XD
